Frustration and immense curiosity.

It will definitely not happen.

I should refrain from getting my hopes up to something that will not happen.

It's like a needle in a haystack; you have a minimal chance of finding it.

This will never be found.
It's just motionless trekking through the mind, taking you to different thought dimensions and strange feelings of hurt and anger.

I must stop letting my hopes get high.

FALSE HOPE.