Quite content, which is abnormal for me.

I feel relaxed for once. I'm not completely sure why; but this is possibly the first time that I'm NOT playing "the game". It feels so much better not having to be annoyed all the time - being laid back is possibly a great way to be.

It makes me smile - something that hasn't properly happened for a while. I'm optimistic about this. I'm never optimistic!

I somehow think that deep down, I am growing up.

I don't think about things as much as I used to. Usually I'd read into stuff like "ahhhhhhh I shouldn't have said that - why isn't he replying - he doesn't like me!"

Now I genuinely do not care. I'm allowing fate come to me.

Whatever happens, happens; and I can deal with that.