Great.

Why is it, that every guy I start to like - fucks me over?

It's like a have a permanent sign across my head saying "MUG".

I don't know how to feel anymore, is this how giving up feels?

What have I done so wrong that nobody can love me?

Yes. I have consumed a lot of alcohol tonight - that is why I am talking absolute shite - but still. don't understand how mens minds work. I am seriously confused and upset right now.